What's up, Doc?

I have a confession to make. I've got a crush on my doctor. Yep, it's true! I can't believe this is happening to me at my age. All of a sudden I feel like I'm 17 again. I first met him in February and almost instantly felt something tingly for him. I don't know what it is. It's not because of what he does for a living. And I know it's not because he's gorgeous either. But I think about him often (shit, I can't believe I'm saying this!). I'm also very nervous around him. Wait, that would be putting it too mildly. Let me correct that - I'm a complete WRECK when I'm around him! It's like, before I'm scheduled to come in for a routine visit I would plan out what I was going to talk to him about. I would even practice it in front of a mirror. But when I'm actually face-to-face with him I lose my thoughts & my ability to speak! I was in his office yesterday and while treating me, he tried to make some small talk about something unrelated to my visit (like travel & stuff) but I might as well have been in a fucking coma! I didn't have much to say to him. Could he have noticed my fascination for him? Gosh, I hope this silliness will pass. I can't stand it! I feel helpless... no different than a little girl too shy to ask for what she wants.